You know what irritates me. People who try to compare situations. People who have a different mental health than me. However, its my fault, I need to stop confiding in  people who I think are my friends. My friends talk about me behind my back to each other.. where i’m from we call them “sneak dissers”  you know I love my friends but I feel they only love me when i’m happy and when i’m avoiding the depression. Yet, when i’m low and feel down its not the same. I can’t blame them though depression is a lot to handle and they have their own problems and my problem aren’t theirs…… . But if I do keep up the friendship or if they want to still be friends with me i’m going to give them exactly what they want. The side of Tia that isn’t annoying the “Happy Tia”.

so we shall see,

farewell my fellow depressed chicks.


Bad Blog Alert

Well here we are once again. I’m back in this hell hole of a school.

However, this is my last semester. Everyone around me believe I should be so excited and happy but I can’t be happy and excited about my last semester. For me it’s practically impossible. My depression is eating me up inside. I cry almost every day debating on my point of existing on this earth. My anxiety is TERRIBLE. I look at a syllabus and see everything that could go wrong.  Trying to read each word of my syllabus causes my anxiety to worsen. I can’t sleep; I have to take sleep medicine just to close my eyes at night (Zquil). My thoughts are racing all day.

They race so bad that I can’t focus. My mind keeps wondering off and I don’t like it.

I just want to be happy and I don’t know where to start. I have SO MUCH to be grateful for however darkness keeps feeling my mind. I want to be a better me,daughter, friend everything but don’t know where to start. Sometimes I think people are better without me. But I now that is just the dark part of my mind.



I know no one will see this…but I need help.


Goodnight My fellow depressed chicks….

Last Blog (for class)

Hello my fellow depressed chicks,

I just wanted to say goodbye for now. This will be my last blog post for my BC&J class. However, I will not stop blogging. I will pick up blogging again this summer starting June 1st.

This summer should be fun (even though I’ll be in school). But I have many thing I will be going to and wold love to share with you all.

MultiMedia story



Zeta Phi Beta Sorority, Inc. was founded January 16, 1920, on the campus of Howard University, Washington, D.C. The founders are Arizona Clever Stemons, Pearl A Neal, Fannie Pettie Watts, Viola Tyler Goings, and Myrtle Tyler Faithful. These young women are known to members of the sorority as the “Five Pearls”. These Women strived to be the best and wanted nothing but hard-working young women in their sorority . They envisioned a sorority which would have a positive impact on campus and in the world. Zeta Phi Betas Motto is “a community-conscious, action-oriented organization”.  Zeta Phi Beta was founded on the principles of Scholarship, Service, Sisterly Love, and Finer Womanhood.

FINERWOMAN Hood is how you carry yourself in every aspect, social, business, etc. You must uphold an image not only for your organization but for yourself as a woman. SCHOLARSHIP is important because we strive to do our best in academics. Doing good in academics is beneficial not only to the chapter but to you as an individual. Good  academics can open up many doors for people such as paid internships and scholarships that require a certain GPA. SERVICE is our principal because it is always good to give back to others and people who are in need. Helping/volunteering on and off campus could go a long way. SISTERHOOD is very important in our sorority. We are always there for each other through good and bad times. It is always nice to have an everlasting bond and support from other women. The women of Zeta Phi Beta Sorority up holds a positive image. They are known for their principles, doves and colors ROYAL blue and WHITE.

“Zeta Phi Beta was the first National Pan-Hellenic Council organization to centralize its operations in a national headquarters, first to charter a chapter in Africa,  and first to be constitutionally bound to a fraternity, Phi Beta Sigma Fraternity, Inc. The sorority takes pride in its continued participation in transforming communities through volunteer services from members.  Zeta Phi Beta has chartered 850 chapters worldwide.” (zphib1920.org)

Zetas are known for their principles, doves, colors ROYAL blue and WHITE AND  for undergrad their positive image on campus.

Omicron Kappa

Was chartered at Western Illinois University May 5th 1978 the founding line included 7 young women who was led by Soror  Sharon young. Some things omicron kappa do on campus is volunteer work such as painting the paws and cleaning the streets. They also host educational to help benefit the campus.  Omicron Kappa like to be engaged and host or Perform at Step shows on campus. College students like entertainment and Greeks these events are sometimes fundraisers for the chapters. We invite other greek organizations to come out and perform their steps and strolls.  Step shows and strolling is a big part of the D-9 community Soror Essence Townsel explains why in the video below.